Thursday, July 4, 2013

Help me, would you?

How little should a screw be to be relegated to the tiny screw bottle?  Should I measure the length to decide?  Determining the circumference seems a little ridiculous—and time-consuming.  You’re probably thinking that “ridiculous” is organizing a tool box all the way down to the nails and screws.  You might even think I’m insane for taking on such a task on one of the few days I can skip work (some people call these days “holidays”).  My therapist says this craving to organize is a method of asserting control.  I think his “analysis” is dead wrong . . . especially given the fact that I don’t *have* a therapist.  How crazy do you think I am, anyway?  (Who *was* that guy?)   Back to the important topic:  categorizing the screws.  I’ve divided them into flat-end and pointy-end.  I’m surprised at how few nails I have, by the way.  Wouldn’t you be too?  Don’t most people have more loose nails lying around than loose screws—and that last phrase was completely unintentional, I swear.  Once I split the screws into their two basic categories, I had to use *two* tiny screw bottles, thereby dramatically diminishing the number of tiny screws in each bottle.  To justify using such large bottles for so few items, I began cheating:  identifying screws a tad bit larger than my original criteria.  Hence, the initial questions.  Any suggestions?  Besides “go outside and enjoy the day, you weirdo,” I mean.  Thanks.


Seriously, you might be able to help me out by answering a sincere question.  What song includes the backup lyrics “Everywhere, all the time”?  I’ve been trying to remember the answer for about a week now, and I can feel my brain tipping into the realm of insanity by the failure to find it.  PLEASE, SOMEONE, TELL ME.  PLEASE!  One of my brothers asked me if I knew, and, being the loyal sister that I am, I began my quest.  It has recently occurred to me, though, that my brother might have been messing with me, like that time when I was a teenager and had come home really high, having told my parents that I had gone to see the movie “Close Encounters of a Third Kind” with friends.  I had not, in fact, gone to see that movie, although I have since tried to watch it and not seen it yet again because I found it quite boring—not to criticize anyone who *has* enjoyed it, because my boredom probably resulted from having a drug-addled brain (“drug-addled” meaning damaged from prior drug use as opposed to defective from the effects of drugs at the time).  So, after having gone out with friends and having smoked a good deal of weed, an activity that actually gave me little pleasure and a lot of paranoia and discomfort and causes me to this day to puzzle over my stupid behavior, I came home, stopped in my mother’s bedroom to let her know that I was home safe.  I knew that she, being somewhat of an addict herself, would be drunk on wine, as she usually was in the late evenings.  I assume my father was at work.  He often worked the night shift at Ford.  I miss my father, by the way.  We all do.  (He’s dead.)  Instead of a quick, “I’m home, I love you, good night, sleep tight, don’t let the bed bugs bite” after which my mother would return to her book, wine, and cigarette (unless by then she had quit smoking, which she had done around that time, much to her credit; quitting wine came later), I found one of my brothers—the one who posed the song lyric question mentioned earlier (a time that right now seems so long ago to all of us, I’m sure, and I’m referring to the mentioning of it rather than the occurrence itself)—sitting at the foot of my mother’s bed.  We often did that, sit at the foot of Mama’s bed and talk to her.  She was the most fun when she had been drinking wine, she being a fun drunk rather than an angry drunk.  (She was an angry sober, but not anymore.)  That’s where my brother (a different one) and I got our sex education:  at the foot of my mother’s bed.  (I just read that last sentence and realize the perversion it implies—at least to those of you with perverted minds.  Settle down, you frickin’ freaks.  My mother, being a nurse—she was the top of her class, straight A’s, student Number One—explained anatomy, sex, reproduction, etc. to us as we sat at the foot of the bed.)  I keep referring to it as “my mother’s bed,” when, of course, it was my mother’s *and* father’s bed.  The distinction is merely to identify who was sitting in it at the time.  I recall only rare instances of sitting at the foot of my mother’s and father’s bed, probably because in the instances during which it would qualify as my mother’s and father’s bed there would have been either sleeping or sex going on.  Anyway, so I stop in to say good night, and there they sit, Mama and Bad Brother (the name I’ve just given him because of my increasing suspicion that he is secretly trying to make me go mad), chatting away.  One of them asks me how I liked the movie.  I don’t recall my answer, but I am absolutely certain that I did *not* invite further commentary.  Nonetheless, Bad Brother began his incessant questioning.  At the time, in my confused and paranoid state (KIDS, DON’T DO DRUGS), I vacillated between frustration over Bad Brother’s innocent naiveté (is that redundant?) and suspicion of his ulterior motives.  He either wanted to discuss a movie he sincerely believed I had seen or he knew (A) I was high, (B) I had not seen the damn movie, or (C) both, and he was tormenting me as he watched my strained efforts to avoid exposing my sneakiness to my mother.  His questions got very, very specific.  He asked me what it meant when, I don’t know, some character did some kind of motioning with his hands.  WTF?!  Did such a stupid scene really take place?  (Another reason not to see the movie.)  I gave him my (fake) opinion, intending to head to bed immediately afterward, and then the annoying kid *proceeded to argue with my theory*!  I do not now remember how I extricated myself from the interrogation, but I do remember that my mother could not have cared less and did not suspect a thing.  There are benefits to having a drinking alcoholic parent.  So, do you know, any of you, what song has the backup lyrics “Everywhere, all the time”?  Thank you.